Only you.. Kept me going on through this dark


tunnel.. All i could do is telling you i love you...

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~~ Welcome ~~ to my ugly blog ^_^
Saw something and began to regret about something
Begin to ask myself why
knowing its difficult to forget you

Myself
Name: ...Bryan. --Actually i kinda hate this name. But anyways thx dad and mom

Age: ...14 years old ( 15 to be )

Birthday: ... 17 Septmeber 1994 School: ...Past:
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Loyang Primary~1.9-2001
2.4-2002
3.4-2003
4.4-2004
5.6-2005
6.6-2006

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Now: Siglap Secondary~
1e4-2007
2e4-08
3e4-09

You can judge my appearance with the folllowing photos ..
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Find it rather idiotic and ugly? Thats how i look like ...

Wishes
-Wishing that i noe which choice to make, which road to choose

-Try to gain the luv of the person i lik ( very less likely )

-LOSE WEIGHT (so heavy =.=ll )

-Train my sudden attack acc till veri high rank~currently

Deepest Regrets
-Not talking to you face to face since the very beginning

-Not expressing my luv well enough for you

-Not daring to walk you home everyday

-Not being a councilior even though i was being accepted

-Not followin you home that very nite ...

Pictures..
My psp .. O.O" Photobucket One of my hamster died =(
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Too short to reach my biscuit. Neh ni neh ni poo poo

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gotcha .. She got the biscuit. Yay cheered the hamster. O.o"

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Eating my biscuit -,- Eat eat eat, later become fat!!

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Woah. He knows how to climb the cage. Training for ns and military army. Go Go Go !!

Losing you and starting to lose and being overtaken isnt a nice thing to happen T_T

Looking Back
February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009

Shout-out-loud


Songs

My fav song ..

Got a reason for putting this song first in my song list
Lycris for -feng-

wu yun zai wo men xin li ge xia yi kuai yin ying
wo ling ting chen ji yi jiu de xin qing
qin xi tou ming
jiu xiang mei li de feng jing
zong zai hui yi li cai kan de qing
bei shang tou de xin neng bu neng gou ji xu ai wo
wo yong li qian qi mei wen du de shuang shou
guo wang wen rou
yi jing bei shi jian shang suo
zhi sheng hui san bu qu de nan guo
huan huan piao luo de feng ye xiang si nian
wo dian ran zhu guang wen nuan sui mo de qiu tian
ji guan lue duo tian bian
bei feng lie guo xiang ni de rong yan
wo ba ai xiang cheng le luo ye
que huan bu hui shu xi de na zhang lian
huan huan piao luo de feng ye xiang si nian
wei he wan hui yao gan zai dong tian lai zhi qian
ai ni chuan yue shi jian
liang hang lai zi qiu mo de yan lei
rang ai shen tou le di mian
wo yao de zhi shi ni zai wo shen bian
bei shang tou de xin neng bu neng gou ji xu ai wo
wo yong li qian qi mei wen du de shuang shou
guo wang wen rou
yi jing bei shi jian shang suo
zhi sheng hui san bu qu de nan guo
zai shan yao piao yi de hong yu
sui zhe bei feng diao ling
wo qing qing yao ye feng ling
xiang huan xing bei yi qi de ai qing
xue hua yi pu man le di
shen pa chuang wai feng ye yi ji cheng bing

Links
Jiawei

Joanne

Ben

Song Tat

Yue Yi

Tessa

Sharon

Sean

Nowell

Trisha

Willie

Khaliun

Still got alot to link.. Maybe next time =)

credits
All i could do is to see
3:32 PM
crestFallEn~
Sunday, November 30, 2008

Hais .. 27th november is the day when i was banned
by game master of wolfteam..
Some fuckers out there ..
Hais .. Didnt blog as i was at home and at work.
Lazzy to blog abt my work .. Jus simply bored
Play rakion now .. lol
Thinking of you.. Always ..

All i could do is to see
2:36 PM
Memories~
Wednesday, November 26, 2008


In memories of my hamsters ~
Thinking of you.. Always ..

All i could do is to see
10:27 AM
~CrestFallen~™

Lifes lik that ..
Easy come, Easy go ..
Ytd wake up saw food on the table.
Baked Bean wif rice ..
At least i got something to eatttttt ..
I ate the same food for 2 meals; lunch and dinner.
Then abt 7.15 go and meet my mum at her work place
to eat dinner ..
She go buy korean fish for mii.. Zz.
Fish smell was so strong.. Eeee...
Even my father cant even finish eatin the fish..
My mum also buy soup, kway tiao ..
Kway tiao wass yummmyyy ...
Buy popiah also ...
NA BEI ..
I dunno she ask the shop keeper to put lots of chilli padi..
I go eat 1 piece + extra chilli.
Atomic Bomb in my mouth ..
I was like hopping to the toilet ..
Hais .. Drink lots of cold water ..
After that go Mustafa buy clothes for chinese new yr
and my cousin wedding.
After 2 hrs i finally found the clothes i wan ..
Yippee .. So tired .
Go home and use com then Slp..
Wake up start to blog -,-
Thinking of you.. Always ..

All i could do is to see
12:48 AM
CrestFallen
Monday, November 24, 2008

Hais ..
Jus now my mum forced me to go out and see
and some more said tat i wil enjoy the food.
But in the end when i went out,
she purposely order food i dunno how to eat ..
Zz dammit..
My sis goin to prom night and my mother
dunno how to say the word prom properly
and said PORN night so loudly.
Everyone was lik lookin ..
18 yrs old go for porn night ..
ZzZz ..
Thinking of you.. Always ..

All i could do is to see
2:48 PM
Life is jus unpredictable
Saturday, November 22, 2008

Two of my hamsters died today ..
Two babies 1 adult ..
I didnt expect the adult to be so violent
and bitten the other 3 hamster died ..
Seperated them with plastic ..
The adult bitten it opened and attacked the other two..
Hais .. Life is indeed unpredictable..
You may not noe wad happened
the next day ..
So treasure every single day u have ...
Hais ..
At times i wonder,
What are frens for ?
Foes or Buddies?
Thinking of you.. Always ..

All i could do is to see
9:53 PM
zz
Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Now i onli wish is to have a day of peace
A day from home ..
Peace, No work.
No troubles.
Everyday wad i heard is jus nagging..
Forces of homework to do ..
Today my mother slapped me
Not once .. Not twice
Not 3 times Not 4 times
But
5 Times ..
Her slap isnt the normal slapping.
But a extremely hard slap..
At the 4th slap..
I punch her face ..
End up getting another 5th slap..
She slapped me cos of my sis
My sis didnt put her things properly ..
Then in the end i get scolded
For not clearing for her ..
I am ur son not ur maid ..
Dun tak me for a maid when i m havin holiday..
I am alrdy veri gd by not arguging when
With you when you giv me
tons of work..
Work + Housework..
Mop The floor,
Sweep the whole hse..
Anything go wrong ..
I wil get scolded ..
Wads the FUCKING difference frm a maid ?
I had enough means enough..
Jus keep gettin scolded from you ..
For jus petty reason..
I jus wished for you to be a lendin ear to me..
I seriously nid someone who is capable of comfortin me..
I tot my sister would be..
Instead she ask me to shut up even though i get scolded cos of her ..
Ask my father he not interested so afraid of getting scolded
By my mother ..
Zz i really need some one to keep me happy..
Thinking of you.. Always ..

All i could do is to see
3:37 PM
Monday, November 17, 2008

Nth to do .. Jus kept reading Archie Books

Archie Books

More Archie Books And Even More

Never blog for two days..



Sianx for the past two days ..







I am doin the same old thing ..







Eat, sleep, play, study, do homework..







Its jus lik a cycle ..







Lol upload so photos for fun .. lala







And i completed my british council tests and course..







Which means !! on Saturday i do not







Need to go for lesson.. Yahooo..



Thinking of you.. Always ..

All i could do is to see
8:52 PM
HaiZ
Friday, November 14, 2008

Hais ..
Time really flies ..
Its another wk and its soon wkend
Boring ..
I simply hated wkends..
Wkends means,
more homework.
More housework,
Clean hamster cage ..
Haiz..
Never in my life i get a wk ..
Free of duties,
No work and disturbance at all.
LOL..
Hav to read history again.
At home jus play and play and play..
I jus wan to talk to you a little.
Now i jus finally managed to talk to you..
Realising when i didnt talk to you it seems miserable..
But i kept doubting my feelings..
Thinking of you.. Always ..

All i could do is to see
9:11 PM
Finally ...
Thursday, November 13, 2008

Finally i am slightly happier
instead of being sad ..
firstly, i am slightly recovered from my illness ..
Weeee...
lol
i watch the aids show ..
LOL the illness i hav seems to be lik Aids ..
night sweat, fever, throat pain, stomach pain, etc ..
other thing is .. for the first time in my life ..
i ever stopped thinking about you..
often when i think of you ..
i lik always think of the things you do ..
worse .. i tink of the things u do and makes me sad ...
hais ..
maybe it seems TO be a miracle ..
i also dunno why ..
everyone says i dun seems to luv u ..
but simply i jus dunno how to show my luv for u..
but for others i jus find it more easy ..
usually when ppl think of the ppl they luv,
most tend tobe happy..
however mine seems to be the oppo..
loving u is easy but expressin my luv isnt easy ..
hais ..
Thinking of you.. Always ..

All i could do is to see
6:39 PM
Life was worse then b4
Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Ytd come back from badminton ..
Fever throughout the whole nite ..
No medicine to feed on.
But morning, i saw a few tablets my father left for me ..
Last nitex my fever was 39.7 ..
Today it dropped to 37.9
Head isnt that pain ..
Played audition again..
Lalaa..
Really nth to blog ..
Thinking of you.. Always ..

All i could do is to see
6:47 PM
Always Painful
Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Today woke up at 9am..
Whole body very hot..
Daddy go switch off the air-con and nvr on the fan for me ..
Wake up whole body aching ..
Then i on the computer and start playin wolfteam..
It was a long time before i reach captain..
1.3million for exp.
Haiss..
Do pride war wif ryan ..
We let them win .. he say we look down on him.
Ltr we win them, they say we bully..
And called pistol an insult gun..
Diaos.. =.=ll
Then i stomach pain the whole day ..
Dunno whats wrong ..
Go toilet .. lau sai .. 3 times..
Eat stomach pain medicine .. Still pain..
Vomitted out the food i ate for lunch..
Sick yet i go for badminton ..
Took taxi to elias cc ..
Nobody was there ..
Then i walk walk ard.. then suddenly see
Ly and Wen Siew .. Waa ..
Tio shock immediately run to toilet ..
Dunno why i jus dun wan to see her ..
Saw lam comin then ltr more ppl come .
Play wif daniel then stomach very pain ..
Play few matches then lips very pale ..
Head very pain ..
Am i physically sick or mentally and emotionally sick ?
But the feeling was simply miserable ..
Last wk when playin badminton..
I win alot of match ..
Win wei siong 3 matchs to 1..
Due to my weak body today,
I lose 11 matches win 1 ..
Realli can die ..
Yet again i saw something which i didnt lik ..
But can i do anything?
I doubt so ...
Then play liao ..
Go Macdonald's rest ..
Everybody go MacDonald rest ..
Too tired to go home le ..
Then i ate McNuggets for dinner ..
Eating McNuggets bring back the memories of me when i was 7 yrs old ..
Wei siong go pinch my food ..
Tak my fries ..
Took out my PSP and hear song ..
I knew how much you wan to play the car game in Ryan PSP..
But yet i didnt offer you the PSP game you realli wan..
Instead i took it and hear song ..
Life was indeed miserable ...
Then Song Tat go play with the curry sauce ..
Put chilli and pepper and salt and green tea..
Use straw to stir and stir ..
He suddenly said tis is my TradeMark ..
Self-Made curry sauce ..
He suddenly spitted saliva in the sauce ..
I and Wei Siong was laughin lik siao ..
Others thought we were crazy ..
Song Tat told Daniel if he drink Song Tat ™ curry sauce ..
I sponser gun for him in WolfTeam ..
Get sicked then Wei Siong cover the medical fee ..
LOL ..
Then slack till 5.30 then go home ..
Took 359 home .. then slept throughout the bus ..
Come home .. body feel lik hot ..
Go tak Temperature .. 39.3 ..
No wonder i keep vomitting and headache ..
Hav to clear my rm ..
Hav to clear for my siser ..
Dotz ..
Watch tv then blog ..
Was realli weak .. Emotionally and Mentally Exhausted ..

I do believe in previous life .. Mayb in my previous life .. i talk to you too much .. Then in the second life .. we didnt say anything to each other .. Today i played audi .. Hav a urge of crying .. i didnt noe why does tis happen .. But i felt a sense of Hurt and Discomfort ...
Thinking of you.. Always ..

All i could do is to see
6:42 PM
Wads wrong with me?
Monday, November 10, 2008

Today when i played audition ..
I hate a different feeling .
It was a feelin where nobody ever hoped to have.
Flashes of memories become vital ..
All i could think is abt what did i didnt do ..
Or mayb thing i didnt done it well.
I didnt hav mood to blog ..
Shouldnt have even loaded audition ..
Today marks the day when i remember ..
Thinking of you.. Always ..

All i could do is to see
5:46 PM
I really hate the life i am having now ..
Sunday, November 9, 2008

Song tat and i was talking and venting anger on each other ..
Purple word is, Me to Song Tat ------
Light purple is, Song Tat to Me ------
i slept at 5+ am

then i today woke up at 12am.

My father dunno wads wrong wif him

scold me ...

he say no food and drinks inside the rm where we put the computer ..

then my sis always throw small little sweet packets into the disbin my parents nvr scold

so i tot small packet its okay ..

ytd i got sore throat so i ate 4 herbal swt .. then i throw inside the disbin where it is located in the computer ..

my parents accuse me that i wan to attract ants to the rm
wan to let the ants go inside the computer and spoil it .
zz .. then my sis ytd came to tat very same rm to put powder on her body .. then i didnt noe that the powder is everywhere the rm .. on the com, on the speaker on the printer ..
since my sis havin a-levels my mother ask me to let her use my rm and untidy myrm ..
my rm was so fuckin untidy and dusty tat i hav sore eyes

lol

WTH sia

so i went to the rm where she put the powder and slp

where gt people wan to spoil the computer?

then my father accuse me for everything

said wad .. raise us kids can die

WTH

no body ask u to raise us up ..

ya lor

lol

then he say lik as if i wan to stay at home

usually ppl weekend is the happiest cos can go out wif family.

but for me i hate wkends .

both whole day at home.. surely kpkb.


cant see ly fac

face*

and nid to hear ur parent kpkb

.....

zz then my father keep sayin me .. i dam angry

i scold bad word

then my mother slap my father

my face*

then i scold her

she slap one more time ..

then i scold even louder she wan to slap me .. i grab her hand and push her back

lol

my sis hav a-levels ma .. they wan me to go out wif them

say tat if my sis failed or didnt do well for a-levels she is goin to blame us ..

.....................................

where gt such things

ur sis can purposely dun do well

when sec2 i havin streamin .. they always say what i wil fail la .. i wil go na la ..

always disencourage nvr encourage

lol

now my sis messed up my rm .. i hav to clear for her ..

what fk is it sia ..

ask ur sis fk off to her own room

my mother wan me to let her ..

i was angry ma

so i slept from 5am - 5pm

lol

then i wake up ask her NICELY whether she got tuition

knn she kpkb say wad i wan her to fail her exams ..


LOL

ya ya .. very funny
This was part of my speech wif song tat . Tis is abt the anger i having with me now. But song tat anger.. U wanna noe. ask himself..
often i rely on my frens for encouragement.But everytime i got home. i wil be disencourage.now i managed to get into the first klas, thx to my fren encouragment. instead of my stupid parents


Thinking of you.. Always ..

All i could do is to see
7:04 PM
Sobx..
Saturday, November 8, 2008

Update the steamboat picture another time. Got bugged in the memory card. Pictures cannot be retrive .. =(
LOL..
I blog late late cos surely got lots of things happen de.
Morning wake up see food on the table..
^_^
Dad buy food for me and my sister.
Got kueh kueh, green colour de.
Bee Hoon, Kway tiao, nasi lemak ..
But i morning on the com and play ..
So shocked to see so many ppl online in the morning.
Then play till afternoon my mother cal
ask me if i wan to go british concil.
But i told her i goin but actually i didnt..
Stay at home play play play ..
Then eat kway tiao for breakfast then
beehoon for lunch..
I learn how to tap* in wolfteam ^_^
Self-discovery.. ><
Parents come back home ..
They cook dinner ..
Congee is the results..
While making then my sister come back and request for the bee hoon
By then she come back bee hoon spoil liao.
So i rather eat it for lunch ..
Come back she scolded me for eatin all the food
Each for breakfast each for lunch ..
Whats wrong sia ..
Zz..
Come back show attitude ..
Now she got A-levels..
Everyday still watch tv and use laptop.
The way she study sure fail wad..
Simply hate her.
No sense of gal..
Wear skirt sit wide wide ..
Come home nvr bathe.
Sleep on my bed without bathing.
WTF SIA .
Mum cook scallop congee..
Soo nice ^_^
Got chicken meat ..
MmMmMMmmMmmMMMMMMmmmmmmmmm..
Eat two bowls..
Its really dam yummy..
Now watchin tv and using laptop to blog.

*tap means-Disconnecting your internet and the killing the ppl in your game freely.The ppl moved due to the internet connection you have with them. By disconnecting, the ppl wil stand still and you can kill freely ^_^ But limited to a short time. At least better than nth ..

Watch the channel 8 lik so sad..
Learn to treasure ppl ard me ..
And i always wished you could be the one i treasure the most.
I now really need a pillar of strength. My family can nvr be.
Now i realli wished u would be willin to be my pillar of strength..
Thinking of you.. Always ..

All i could do is to see
12:54 AM
Crestfallen~

I shall blog about ytd ba... which is 7th november.
In the evening my mother wan me to go out..
Sianx dun feel lik goin but
was forced to do so..
So i at 7.30 g MRT tak till bugis.
Meet my parents then go eat steamboat.
All the stall of steamboat got ppl
Soo crowded then finally found one wif lesser ppl
But hav to wait for 15 mins =(
THen stand and wait lor ..
Finally found a place to sit.
Order two different type of soup.
Tom yam and wanton chicken soup.
YuMmY sIa !
Its lik a buffet steamboat.
Got things to eat.
But not a variety ...
Veggies, chicken ball, aiya abit onli la.
But ate for 2hrs..
I gt some photos updating the nxt post.
Talk and eat lor
The food was not bad but...
Not much variety..
Eat finish then go home.
Must walk all the way to bugis MRT..
Then tak MRT to pasir ris lor..
Durin the journey got one man,
he wanna alight from the MRT ..
I didnt noe i was blockin him and
the way he said excuse me doesnt sound lik excuse me
I was jus thinkin some youngster was playin.
Not until when my mother pinch me so hard then i notice him.
Finish Pasir Ris my mother insist on going to
MacDonalds.
Jus eat finish then go MacDonald..
Hais. No wonder my mother so fat.
Force me to drink the stupid coke and fries.
So full still wan me to drink..
Nearly bloated to death =(
I was jus hoping you could talk to me. To you, talkin to me its lik talkin to an oridinary fren. But to me, it meant a special meaning in me and my day .. Thats because i truly love you ...
Thinking of you.. Always ..

All i could do is to see
2:19 PM
Hais..
Friday, November 7, 2008

Boring !!
Life was just as normal as ever.
Nothing interesting.
Today i finally got food for the daylight.
Btw, i play audition in PSP
is not cos i am a gay.. Duhhh..
It reminds me of the happy memories when i play wif you
Now ur com cant be used..
And you and my audition is left untouched.
I jus simply hoped for one day you would start playin.
But it wil nvr happen again.
Mayb this is the end of a short fairytale.
I hav been questioning myself. Why do i still love you when they is nothing to develop .. Find myself rather ridiculous and stupid ..
Thinking of you.. Always ..

All i could do is to see
8:00 PM
Kept sighing all day long ...
Thursday, November 6, 2008

Today was jus lik normal..
In the morning i was scolded ...
I was so tired and had no energy to wake up
I didnt notice that my father ask me to wake up
to help him do something ..
Didnt noe he called me for more than5 times..
Jus because he didnt noe how to use the com properly
he scolded me that i bugged the com.
I was half awake and didnt noe what he was talking at all
He was jus scolding and scoldin.
I am an extremely sensitive boy..
Getting hurted easily .. I cry=.=
Didnt bother much abt it and i continued slping
Slp till 10+ then i use the com ..
Suddenly my sister ask me rudely for my laptop.
Cant she ask me properly for something from me ..
Rudely ask me .. obviously i wil be offended
Talk back at her then she made fun of me being scolded by my father. ..
I was very angry as i was accused.
I simply hated the life of mine..
Everytime i was accuse for things i didnt do.
End up getting beaten or scolded.
Money lost .. my fault.
In the end found it somewhere else..
Hais..
Thinking of you everyday can be Pleasant and it may be miserable..
Wad else can i do . ??
Getting more depressed every day ..
I wonder how and i wonder why ...
jus a word from you can make me happy.. I dun wish maany things from you. I jus hoped that i could talk to you everyday single day. Last time we used to hav lots to say.. Now when to talk to you. You seems to ignored or mayb find me a pest. Hais
Thinking of you.. Always ..


GOING TO THE BOWLING ALLEY !!

My bag ...

Izyan=) my pri and sec sku fren ..



PeeeKaaB000 ...



Waiting to bowl ...








CanDiD sH0t .. Psp Freaks












The BBQ !!~~ Chaotic ..














Lol song tat =.= Everyone carrying psp while going home..
Thinking of you.. Always ..

All i could do is to see
11:37 PM
Wad can i do ?
Wednesday, November 5, 2008

You must really enjoyed urself with him ..
I jus merely asked a qns and you seems to attempt
to chase me away .. If you find me a pest i can even not see
u .. anyways my mother also intended to switch sku for me ...
The earth began to rise, the sky began to fall ..
Its a ridiculous luv .. but its difficult to let go ..
Thinking of you.. Always ..

All i could do is to see
7:02 PM
i really luv u

In the morning i woke up, body aching lik sht ..

Nvr slp properly.

On the com and wolfteam ..

Do many pride war ..

Suddenly my body feel lik weak and i feel lik fainting ..

Then heard from joanne that badminton court no ppl

So i went there early and play ..

Nvr eat lunch jiu play ...

Play wif khaliun and joanne first ..

Serve the bird all miss ...

Hais then vs khaliun and joanne..

heehee win ..

Then slowly got ppl come ..
zavier, wei siong, ryan, leeyee

vent my anger on leeyee..

Really feel very sad and angry cos of ytd. ..

Then so hungry till cannot play ..

Go buy bread and bubble tea to eat ...

Then got energy to play ..

Then i start thrashin ppl again =.=
After badminton go macdonald slack ..

Sad to see some things which i didnt lik to see .

But life its lik tat .. as long as u dun get the luv from the ppl you realli luv

The whole world seems to collaspe ..



I us nid a little courage to talk to you .. But everytime i do so .. u attempted to run away.. when i ask u r u afarid of me u said no ..Hais.. I realli do luv u but wad can i do for you .. you are too gd to be luv by me ..
Thinking of you.. Always ..

All i could do is to see
1:27 AM
I cried all the way home ..

Today the chalet was ... sian ...
Kinda wasted my time actually ...
Hais ... but at least i enjoyed myself before the BBQ ..
Some of my klasmate and i went to play to play arcade
then we went to the bowlin alley ..
Hmm .. who went arh ..
Ohh .. Leeyee, huimin, gracia, sonal, janice, danwei, huixin, khaliun, daryl, zavier, daniel, ryan and me ...
My first time bowling and i was kinda lousy ..
But managed to hang on to it after the second rd ..
Erm .. i didnt noe the bowlin land was so slippery and polised wif oil ..
I went and throw the ball and ended up falling down ..
Fall flat on my butt ...
After that abt 7.15 we went back to the chalet ..
Some ppl was upset that we went bowling without them ..
In the end .. the malays go with the malays ..
The chinese go with the chinese ...
Hais ... why lik that ..
Realli dunno how to elaborate but its realli sux to be truthful ..
No offences pls ..
We played with the fire and done many things ..
Play soccer mashmallows etc ..
By then 10.10pm all go home ..
Some packed food home while some were thrown ..
Walkin home play PSP and won -someone- in a car game ..
Went to macdonald with st , zav, ryan and ly ..
Go there slack for 30 mins to play psp ..
zav go buy Coke and Ice Cream =,=
Then ltr walk to whitesands ... talk on the way ..
And saw something and someone
When i see tis, it makes me feel lik runnin home ..
On the way runnin home i cried ..
It was really heart-shattering to see such things. .
And regretting not doin anything ..
Makes me cry when i think of it ..
A boy .. whom is easily emotionally sensitive can cry anytime anywhere ..
-Update the photos of Bowling nxt post-
Lookin at something u both did .. really shattered my heart and i really feel heart broken .. and regretted for doing that when i ever first loved you ..
Thinking of you.. Always ..

All i could do is to see
11:54 PM
=.=
Monday, November 3, 2008

Lol ... i keep changin my blog font .. for fun ..

Today didnt do much except goin to pasir ris east cc

to play badminton with my sec sku fren ..

After playin back so stiff and hungry ...

Nvr eat lunch ...

So i go buy french fries to eat ..

Hais so unhealthy ...

Actually wanna go ryan hse but too tired le ..

Once i reach home .. bathe then on com

and play online games =.=

Play the same game again ..

LOL ...

Play till 9.30 my mother come back and give me

homework sia ..

FUCKER ...

Holiday still got homework ...

Some more sec 3 work ..

Good enough to kill me ...

I spent so much effort attemptin to go to the first klas ..

I managed to yet she keep pressuring me for work !

No wonder my fren, father and sister spotted white hair ..

Blame my mother la ...

Zz ..

After today what you really wan is company from people and fren ..Being a person who luv u ... I yearn to talk to you ... And keep you accompany .. Mayb i am destined not to be luved ..
Thinking of you.. Always ..

All i could do is to see
12:23 AM
Haa .. Damn fun. All thanks to you .. i love you ^_^

Haa..
That was fun !! ..
Lol. Didnt enjoy myself for so long le .. =))
Dunno why i kinda high sia .. o.o
Maybe i ate drugs or drink too much beer =.=
Woke up so late today ...
Look at hp got so many msg ...
Then i play com till 1+ then go do present for gracia ..
Spent 15 mins doing that..
Shall not elaborate it ...
After that go white sands eat with parents..

Eat banquet ..
Wa piang ehh.. the food damn exp lor ..
Eat liao then go popular buy nxt yr bk !!
Bought onli part of the bk list ...
And it alrdy cost $164.51
Mother was so shocked...

Still got some more bks to buy and uniform to buy too ..
Surely cost up to $300++
Buy liao go burger king drink a bit tea..
Drink le go interchange tak bus 3 in the bus ..
Then drop at the bus-stop near downtown..
Lee yee, solongo and khaliun there waitin for gracia to bring umbrella..
LOL i had a pink umbrella..
Raining so heavy !!
Walk all the way to chalet ...
Reach liao jiu play BOMB BAG.. gals scare until lik that .. So funny hahahaha..
After playin bomb bag jiu play poker card..
Play the game called murderer ... LOL ..
First time heard and dunno how to play but got ppl taught me how to play ..
Lol i made fun of the gals and all the gals go whack me ..
Whack until very shuang hor ..
My whole damn bloody hand all red lik pig head =.=
Still hit .. hit from the beginning till now ...
Play until 5+ then we play
Water bomb ... Throw here and there ..
Most of the balloon miss ... hahaaa ...
Second time my whole body all wet ..
The gals all go tak water pour on my body ..
From head to toe all wet =.=
Lucky got bring extra clothes...
Got one small gal gal .. not sure the name ..
The little sister of a thailand gal ..
Apak =.=
Lik ah pa lik that ..
Keep pourin water on my head ..
The entrance of the whole room all wet in the end get scolded by some adults..
Need two towels to dry myself ..
Dry liao jiu change clothes and chi dong xi le ..
Eat noodles... eat chicken wings...
Eat sauage ... eat satay ...
Eat fishball... Drink coke ...
Eat liao go play poker cards again ..
Play alrdy then go and eat again ..
Eat le jiu sing bdae song ...
Zavier go say gracia born in the zoo and said gracia is a pig ..
In the end i get beaten by Hui min .. adeline .. Gracia and the stupid apak ..
Then we eat again ...
The -we- is ...
Seems to hav a eatin party LOL ...
But its fun ... The food is delicious ..
The thailand gal can eat alot sia...
Eat 3 chicken wings at a time ...Pei fu ..
After that i lent my psp to Hui min to play audition ..
LOL all snatchin to play ...
The gals then walk one of them home .. and i and zavier
go downtown walk walk ..
All the shop all close liao ...
Guan dian ...
Buy sweet and ice cream to eat ...
buy le jiu go back chalet ...
There we play poker cards again ...
Play the game murderer ..
Lol wink and stare at ppl de ... soo scary !!
Blehh...
First time i see u lik so happy ...
Cos i nvr dare to look at you at all ... T_T
Got play hart attack too..
Play really can get heart attack sia ...
play till 11.30 then all go home liaos ...
Some walk home some tak bus ...
I , zavier , leeyee walk the same direction and place ..
stupid zavier ... keep askin me to to walk beside ly..
Obviously i cant do it ..
Took 359 home ...
Waited for the bus to come .. so long ...
Reach liao abt 12.20..
Lucky parents slpin nvr scold me ^_^
Sms you so many times but didnt get the respond .. you know that the hurt can be easily felt .. especially when you didnt even want to look into my eyes ..
Thinking of you.. Always ..

All i could do is to see
9:01 PM
...
Saturday, November 1, 2008

RAWRRR ...
i really got nth to blog !!
Today i finally went to british council
Totally wastin my time ..
Teacher talkin so many bullshit ..
Stupid winnie ..
See me then step on my foot make me fall in klas ..
Make the teacher laugh ..
Zz .. i hate you la ..
And today i scolded my mother bad words due to bad temper =.=
My wish dun seems to come true .. i done my best to get wad i realy wan ...
Thinking of you.. Always ..